Sunday, December 27, 2015

The Watchman on the Shelf


For thus the Lord said to me: “Go, set a watchman, let him announce what he sees. When he sees riders, horsemen in pairs, riders on asses, riders on camels, let him listen diligently, very diligently.”
Isaiah 21:6-7 (RSV)


I bought Harper Lee’s Go Set a Watchman the day it came out but, months later, I’ve yet to read it. My reasons fall into three areas.

First, I always treasured To Kill a Mockingbird as a Great American Novel if not the Great American Novel. In many ways it addresses American’s issues with race, class, and gender which have not changed much since Mockingbird was published in 1960. Just check out today’s headlines: isolated enclaves where the select erect barriers against the “other” who is not one of “our” kind and where they imagine grievances that affirm their opinions of people they don’t know. Even when faced with evidence that they got it wrong, they cling to their “truth” until it hurts. We still have lessons to learn from To Kill a Mockingbird about our history and our present lives.

Even if the themes did not resonate across two centuries, Mockingbird is literarily rich. When I teach the novel, I always read aloud the beginning of the first chapter – using the last vestiges of my Mississippi accent overlaid with exaggeration. When the class has ended the novel, I read aloud the end of the last chapter and immediately re-read the beginning of the first chapter again. Full circle! Don’t you love it?

Then there’s the complication of narrator and point of view. I lead students to distinguish Jean Louise Finch, the adult narrator, from Scout Finch, the child from whose point of view we experience the story. Jean Louise has an adult’s vocabulary, prospective, and insight into what connects people and events across time. She knows how the story will end and so is careful to recount what really matters so we can understand as much as possible about what it all means. Scout is only six as the story begins and, I believe, eight by the end of the novel. She does “listen diligently, very diligently” and notes rich details of her experiences. We can  understand more than she does about what it all means only because of the rich details she gives us.

Unfortunately, some schools fail to see this distinction of point and view and narrator. For those without vision, it’s a child’s story and when students read it when they are too young to “get” what Scout misses, it remains a child’s story and they never arrive at what really matters. Was it Boo Radley’s coming out? Was it Bob Ewell’s poverty of self-worth? Was it Tom Robinson’s tragic ending? Was it Mayella’s pitiful existence? Was it Atticus’ parenting skills? Was it Scout, Jem, and Dill’s loss of innocence? Or was it the mockingbird that symbolizes each of these characters? (Guess which one I think matters most?)

I read the online free first chapter of Watchman before the book was released and did not get that chill as I did with the first sentences of Mockingbird. There was nothing special in the language and I was not inspired to take on a southern accent and read aloud. By the end of that sample, I was nearly bored and didn’t really care about Jean Louise’s fate. I really didn’t want to read any more. That is why the novel stares at me from my bookcase rarely tempting me to dive in.

My third reason for not yet reading Watchman is on a lighter -- and yet more serious -- note. The pace of life in Maycomb and the people who populated Harper Lee’s fictional town resonated with memories I have of my childhood in Jackson, Mississippi. The Radley house was much like my Aunt Sarah’s, with rumors of a specter who came out when no one was watching to do unmentionable deeds. Like Scout, Jem, and Dill, my sister and I daily dared each other to touch Aunt Sarah’s front steps, her porch, her door. Both of us would run screaming with laughter if we caught any movement of a shadow in the window. But there was no Nathan shutting her in the basement, away from the world.

When she finally emerged into the light of my grandparents’ living room, Aunt Sarah smiled and offered us sweet treats with bright innocent eyes. Like Boo Radley, Aunt Sarah kept to the shadowy corners of rooms when adults were present but relaxed her guard with children.

When I eventually was given her permission to enter Aunt Sarah's little house down the road from my grandparents, I glimpsed a solitary life in a one-room dollhouse. The one room was clean and orderly with neatly groomed dolls filling every room much like my home is always filled with books. Dolls posed on chairs, propped on shelves, relaxing on the bed, and even tenderly placed against furniture on the floor but not too close to the wood-burning stove. There were no fewer than three dolls in each spot.

Even when I was young, I knew Aunt Sarah had a problem (one I could never name) when I saw her holding a conversation with a roach crawling up the wall. Aunt Sarah died before I heard her story but I never doubted there was one as full as Boo’s with sorrow and regret, mystery and borrowed joy.

When I read that first chapter of Watchman, nothing resonated. In fact, I experienced the opposite. Jean Louise already the "watchman" looking from the dining car, her arrival at the train station and everything that happens after she gets off was alien to my childhood in Mississippi. First, the trains were segregated and we were only allowed in the dining car to serve. Pound cake and fried chicken in a shoebox were always part of our journey from Chicago to Jackson. Getting home from the train station was nowhere near as pleasant for me, scrunched in an overcrowded cab with eight other “Negro” passengers and carrying my own suitcase. I found no points of identification with this stranger and the people she met on her way.

It doesn’t bother me that Harper Lee writes about a white experience. What else could she do but “announce what [she] sees” and hears? The experience of growing up white in the south is her experience. In fact, I appreciate the fact that she does not write much about the Negroes of Maycomb. When I teach the book, I spend a good amount of time on the scene when Calpurnia takes Jem and Scout to her church. Our only glimpse into Negro life may very well have been part of Harper Lee’s childhood experience, which explains why it’s part of Scout’s. The only other scene set in the Negro part of town was when Atticus goes to tell Helen Robinson of Tom’s death. In the book, Jem recounts his experience to Scout because she wasn’t there. It is likely Harper Lee had no direct experience of visiting a Negro neighborhood and there are only murky details mediated through Jem’s sleepy memory.

This leads me to the questions that occasionally tempt me to pick up Watchman. Do we learn more about the Negroes of Maycomb? Does Jean Louise venture where Scout did not/ could not? Do we learn what becomes of Helen Robinson and her children? Is Calpurnia still part of the Finches’ lives? What becomes of Dill? Does Jean Louise see Atticus with the same rose-colored glasses Scout wore? Has Maycomb changed in any significant way – as the result of world events if not the events we read about in Mockingbird? How does post-War War II Maycomb differ from post-Depression Maycomb?

If at least some of these questions are not addressed, I know I will be disappointed. Is it better to leave me with the satisfaction I gained from Mockingbird or to instill bitterness for Harper Lee’s failure to live up to the promise of her first novel?

More to come.

Monday, June 1, 2015

Dressing on the side: Another story in progress


            Brea was the kind of Minnesota woman who went from sandals to boots with no other footwear in between. In October, in a nod of acknowledgement to the climate, she’d wear long sleeves with her shorts and sandals, adding a jersey hoodie and boots to her longer shorts the closer the month moved toward Halloween. She rarely wore a winter coat before Thanksgiving, complaining along the way of the cold winds and snow. Her sweater and boots and jacket should have kept her warm.

            Brea was Rebecca’s wild child. She’d kicked off whatever southern heat might still cling to her genes and rejoiced in the ice of the land of a thousand lakes.

            Trish consumed sunshine through her skin. She gloried in the rays and the warmth, thinking of winter even in August as she stored memories along with the thermals. She divided her clothing into three seasons: summer, winter, and the in-betweens of fall and spring. She didn’t wear boots until the snow fell but by October, she’d stop wearing sandals and sleeveless tops. Everything in its season.

            Trish was Rebecca’s mild child. A person might think she carried the South in her veins and sought to thaw Minnesota from her blood.

            You’d think Brea needed taming, and you’d be right. But Rebecca heeding the warning about still waters knew it takes more than boots and clothing to regulate temperament. And Trish called herself a hot blooded woman.


Furious


To end your happiness


The gods will send you deep despair

They will conjure up horrors to haunt your dreams

They will shrink your joy

They will call out the  furies to torment your waking
To  feed you venom
For
Only gods may feast on ambrosia to satisfy all hungers
Only gods can savor nectar that quenches all thirst
The gods will not grant grace to  mortals

They will not salve you with balm 
They will not soothe your sorrows

For
The gods are jealous

They aim to kill your soul


Friday, May 29, 2015

Song for Marguerite Ann Johnson, A Free Bird



Are you singing

Now that your prayers are answered?
Is it for merriment and angelic choirs?

You’ve risen to the highest bough
And now
You can defy what is known
And soar through the night and the rain
You can sing at sunset
You can bathe in the Sargasso Sea

Or does sorrow yet plague you
Because you see us still searching for our diamonds here in the dreck?
Do you yearn to reach us again with your warmth?

With your voice
You healed our battered wings
With your words
You beat back our fears
With your life
You told us
That we, too, would rise

The cage door is open.
Go and breathe in the day
And watch your smile shimmering in the sun
As you rise above the river.

You can sing softly at midnight
When fears and doubts take wing,
You can sing us songs
Of heaven’s dawn
That carry us through our dark days,
Or you can rest.

Listen as heaven sings praise
To a weary soul at rest.
You are the reason
And the song.


2 June 2014

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Pasodoble



Remember
When you wrapped me around your shoulders and
I hugged myself to you
like a consuming fire?
As we floated above the floor
I inhaled your air and exhaled my smoldering flame.

Until
You felt my love a dousing rain
Assaulting your blazing light,
smothering your cool points
You twirled a pirouette into a revolution

Entwined in your heat
I followed your rhythm
Did you know:
You carried me and the fire

As I leaned into your kiss
Your killing blow
hidden in the heat
hiding in the beat
Found my heart

I smoke at your feet
holding on to passion
drowning in the rage